They like me, they really like me?

So I have been a real tool when it comes to selecting awards! I sit on them and stir...
How did I deserve this, What were they thinking, They really feel this way? Then I think....
Who can I give this one to, Who would enjoy this as much as I do?

First:
I received this award from 2 great bloggers:
Jo @ 20 to Life
Annette @ Fairy Blog Mother

Second:
I received this award from:
Annette @ Fairy Blog Mother

These two lovely ladies are amazing bloggers and I highly suggest you visit their blogs for, some laughs, I remember that, fun and friendship you won't be sorry that you did!

Okay girls, get your speeches ready:

Jo @ 20 to Life

Stacey @ Stacey Says

Chrissy @ Life as a CEO

Lindsay @ Shrimp Salad Circus

Ashley @ Lil Blue Boo

Heather @ The Penny-Pinching Mama

Journal Entry

July 31st

Today me and Chucky went to the doctor to get my stitches out. It has been longer than a week and so the skin started to grow around the stitches.{gross} My aunt Ruthie{not her real name} works at the doctors office and was the nurse on duty today. She took me back into the room and while taking my vitals she asked me where mom was, I told her that she was at work. She finished and left the room. I sat in the cold waiting room for the doctor to come in and take my stitches out, which I thought would hurt just as bad as when I got them. It seemed like it took forever. Just as I started to read a magazine my aunt peeked her head in and asked if mom was going to come, and I told her no that she was at work, she left. I started to read the magazine and copy down a recipe that was in the book when my aunt peeked her head in and asked if the doctor had been in yet, I said no not yet and she left. The doctor came in and asked how I was feeling before he started to take the stitches out. Chucky was asking the doctor a lot of questions but as soon as he started to take them out, he booked it to the chair in the corner, asking me every few minutes if it hurt and if I was okay. It didn't hurt at all, as a matter of fact, they came out smoothe like butta. When he was finished, he asked me to meet him in another room, which was fine because the room we were in brought back some not so fond memories. I was in the room for a few minutes copying down my recipe when aunt Ruthie peeked her head in and asked if the doctor had been in yet and I said no. Chucky started showing me a part on his psp when aunt Ruthie peeked her head in again and asked if the doctor had been in to see me yet, which he hadn't. Chucky finished showing me his game and the doctor came in. He sat down in his chair while looking at the papers that he brought in with him, he told me he got a sizeable amount and that it was able to be tested. That's when he said that I had dermatofibroma sarcoma partuberans. I looked at him with my eyes glazed over, what the heck is whatever you just said. He told me "you have cancer." Chucky shouted, "Mom, you have cancer, are you going to die?" What am I supposed to say to my son, when I don't even have the answer? The doctor started to explain the cancer to me, but all I could hear in my head was- "you have cancer!" It is a rare cancer that isn't "supposed" to spread but can, and comes back in the same spot over and over again. He told me that I was going to need surgery, to remove all of it and that it should be a pretty simple surgery although he might have to do a skin graph because of how deep and wide it was and how much that he had taken out. I just sat there shaking my head as if I knew what he was talking about, pretending I wasn't numb all the while staring a hole right through him. He told me that he does surgeries on Tuesday's if I wanted him to do the surgery, of course I told him yes, he is the best surgeon in our town. He left the room to get the papers to set up my surgery, aunt Ruthie peeked her head in and I lost it, I couldn't control myself. She said that she wanted to call mom and tell her to come with me to my appointment but because of the STUPID rules she couldn't. Aunt Ruthie sat down next to me, to console me. She kept tellling me that everything was going to be okay and that they caught it early. The doctor never did come back in, so I had to go to the front desk and set my appointment. I asked if I could get a copy of the recipe that I didn't quiet finish writing down, and the receptionist was nice enough to let me take the magazine, which makes me feel bad because what if someone else wanted that recipe? As we were stading there waiting for the appointment, Chucky said really loud " that sucks that you have cancer huh mom!" I turned around and everybody in the waiting room was staring right at me. We started walking to the car when I realized that I have no idea what kind ofcancer that I should tell my family that I have, so I went back into the doctors office and asked the receptionist if she could write it down for me, she said that she would make me a copy. Chucky and I got into the car and I just started driving, I had no idea where I was going, Ijust knew I couldn't go home and go stir crazy. I ended up at mom's work after a half hour of driving around aimlessly. I didn't want to walk in and just lay it all on her, hey mom how's work going, I have cancer. But it seems like that is exactly what I did. She said that we would talk when she got home. So me and Chucky packed it up and started to head home. I didn't even get out of the parking lot when my phone started to ring. I then decided that I needed to call my dad, my brothers and close friends before they heard it from somebody else.

I can't seem to find the recipe, but as soon as I do, I will post it. It was a good one! teehee;}
to be continued...

Grosgrain Fabulous

At Grosgrain Fabulous, she hosts a plethura of giveaways, those of the handmade, shop made, company made and from the heart! If you've not been there lately as I have you are sure missing out!



 This dress from Shabby Apple's new Baja line makes me wish that summer would hurry up and get here already. If your like me, and are just dreaming of spring and summer weather, you can enter to win the San Gabriel dress in your size choice. Who wouldn't love this dress with the perfect weather?

Here is a few giveaways that she has going over at her blog right now:

Allorahandmade

Which is a bound to make your day brighter! It is the "Partly Sunny Necklace"

I bet a lot of you still need to protect your babies from the elements as we do here, where we have the "Greatest Snow on Earth" that seems to be never ending!! Even if you don't live in a cold climate, it is still nice to have the babe protected from all of those sticky fingered people who can't seem to keep their hands off of a new baby. That's where the Baby Bungalow from 2 Speckled Frogs comes in... they go right over the car seat, so you don't have to worry about those touchy feely people anymore!  If your the winner, you get to choose your choice of fabric!

Little Pea Boutique WINNER....

The winner of the $15 GC to Little Pea Boutique is................. Merrie L.
Congratulations Merrie L.
Thank you to all who entered my giveaway. If you weren't a winner don't fret, I will be hosting more giveaway's soon!

WINNER.....

The Winner of the $35 GC to AllChildren'sFurniture.com giveaway is.....
                                Bri! 
Congratulations Bri!
Thanks everyone who entered but don't fret if you didn't win, I will be having more giveaways!